Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Wishcasting Wednesday: Holiday Wishes

It is the day before Christmas Eve and today Jamie over at Jamie Ridler Studio asks us

What do you wish for this holiday season?

I wish for stability, less stress, more peace and happiness. I catch peace and happiness in tiny fragmentary moments as I am caught at the edge of this precipice where I am tiptoeing through the darkness. Like the stars on a cloudy night, I see the faintest glimmer as the clouds pass by, but mostly I see the inky blackness of the clouds. I walk tentatively, at the end of my strength, afraid that my next step will send me over the edge into the abyss that lurks just out of my sight in the darkness of the night I am walking through. I have called upon those whose place it is in life to guard weary pilgrims through dangerous passages, but I feel no guide, no warm guardian presence. Just the awful silence waiting to swallow me into never ending darkness. I push forward, knowing that the light will return and I will once again walk safely in the light of day on a path that meanders through bright meadows and gentle hills. The light is returning, and I am on my journey out of this particular night, but I seek the rest that those glittering fragments of peace and happiness can bring me here and now to refresh me as I travel.

I am glad to be celebrating the end of 2009 - quite frankly I'm having a difficult time finding the bright places in the year and I want it to be over. I want to start fresh, letting the manure and compost of the events of this last year settle into the soil and become the nutrients that feed my growth and blossoming in 2010.

25 comments:

LADYHIGHTOWER said...

You are not alone. Unknown friends are now known and praying for the sweet blessings to come your way.

WrightStuff said...

I like your manure and compost analogy. We've all had years like that but you are right - we grow better things from the experience. May you have a wonderful 2010 and all your heartfelt wishes come true.

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
Wishing you a lovely 2010. :)

Sheila Cain-Sample said...

As you wish for yourself I wish for you Sulwyn. All the best

Ginny said...

As you wish for yourself, I also wish for you. May each new day be filled with bright sparkly moments and happiness!

Amanda said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so do I wish for her. You are not alone. I really liked the manure and compost analogy. I think I have definately been composting this year: building up steam, then getting turned, to break down into something better. May the next year be a spactacular year for us all.

Karen D said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also. May you have the happiness and peace you are looking for.

Grammy said...

I have felt that way many a year. And was a baugh him bug person. But now I just look forward to the joy of the kids. It is for them this holiday. And love is the gift, I now receive. I wish you internal peace. And send you virtual love and a hug.

As you wish for yourself, I also wish for you

Sara @Soulspackle said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

I hope that many blessings and peace and joy are yours in 2010!

Macrina said...

Sulwyn.....May your blossoming daze, amaze and astound you! I propose a toast to your buds and your flowers....and to the compost too. It is part of your darkness that holds your light.

Stefanie said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I sincerely wish for her as well.

Wishing you nothing but goodness as you are blinded by the light in 2010!

Sarah said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Oh hon..I am in tears..how beautifully you wrote this. I am so deeply touched by what you feel!

May this next year burst into warm, delicious sunlight,
may the edges of cliffs be far from you,may you bask in light this year and may the manure bloom into delightful joys.
Huge hugs, Sarah

faerwillow said...

~as Sulwyn wishes for glittering fragment of peace so i wish for her too...may you shower her with only an abundance of peace & happiness...this year has all to been a trying time for myself and my family and i am so eager as well to bid the year farewell...may you journey on to much brighter days being blessed with only the good life has to offer. brightest blessings~

Rebecca Johnson said...

May the darkness hold you, Sulwyn. I do so deeply believe in your metaphors of darkness, growth, the return of the light and the eventual blooms. I am so sorry that it is painful in the meantime. I offer you my prayers and support.

Love....

Beverley Baird said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
A blessed Christmas and joyous New Year to you and yours!

Ange said...

2009 marks the end of another cycle so dear Sulwyn I do so sincerely wish the same wish for you also. May the dark recede and the compost yield a beautiful plant... Blessings. The light is always there. Always!

Ange

Expressive Hart said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I so wish for her also. Wishing you peace and happiness.

Susie said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her, also. I am glad you know the light will return. You will find your way through the darkness. May your 2010 be bright with happiness.

Jamie Ridler said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

May the New Year bring you ease and joy and love. May you find yourself blossoming and surrounded by beauty, friendship and all that you need.

Helen said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also. All the best for a bright and new 2010!

Robin said...

Oh! 2009 is almost over, thank goodness! It was a sucky year - so good riddance! I've already declared it over, so I'll declare it DONE! for you, too.

Sulwyn, I know how you feel. It's like you have to keep your mind RIGHT THERE in the moment or else it goes cascading all sorts of places you so don't want to be. It's tiring to stay RIGHT THERE all the time, but the alternative is ... well, you know.

As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you. The light will come. I'm sure of it. Meanwhile, we are all right here for you.

Lay Hoon aka mescrap said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
Merry Christmas and have a great & funtastic year 2010.

Steph said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her.....Blessings!!!

KathrynAntyr said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also. 2010 is just around the corner! May your year be filled with love and many creative adventures.

jchristin said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself so I too wish for her as well. May 2010be full of lots of light, and may you find peace in all spots....