Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Wishcasting Wednesday - Permission

Today at Jamie Ridler Studios, Jamie asks us

What do you wish to give yourself permission for?

Do you have all day? I probably have a list a mile long! It all comes down to giving myself permission to discover my authentic self and to live from that place of truth.

So much of my life is currently ruled by fear. Fear of the power that I hold within myself. Fear of what others will say of any non-conformity I may exhibit. Fear of the unique place I occupy in this world. Fear of the changes that living my power and truth will bring to my life and the lives of those around me. Fear that my current illnesses will hold me back. Fear that my current illnesses are caused by my fear of living my fullest truth and power. Fear that my current illnesses are a catalyst to a new life. Fear that my current illnesses are simply that illnesses and that they will never go away. Fear that the demons whispering inside of me, urging me to do something I know is foolish and unhelpful, will wear down my resistance and cause deep damage. Fear that if anyone knew what was going on inside of me, how much and how powerful my fears were, that I would remain an outcast for the rest of my days.

I wish to give myself permission to feel the fear and then to move on. To befriend that fear as a teacher and guide on my path to my deepest truth. To know that fear is a key to unlocking my passionate, powerful, exquisitely beautiful, divinely gifted Truth and not fear the fear.

I will write myself a permission slip today, decorated with paints and colors, signed with a flourish in a wild color. Embrace the fear and truly feel it, learn from it and grow into myself.

P.S. One of my frustrations as my illness is progressing is that I cannot spend the time on the computer that I wish to. Know that I long to post encouraging thoughts to each of you, but for the sake of my vision and headaches must limit myself to wishing with you briefly in words. Know that I will carry each of your wishes into the world with me for pondering and wishing with away from the painful light of the computer screen.

21 comments:

Wendy said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself so I wish for her also.

BunnyKissd said...

As you wish for yourself, as I wish for you also! {{{hugs}}}

Amanda said...

Hey, Sulwyn. I think we all have those fears. Sometimes mine way me down horribly. It seems so many of my sentences start with, "But, I'm afraid of...," "I'm scared that..."

May you find the strength and courage to embrace your fears and live life fearlessly.

As Sulwyn wished for herself, so I wish for her too.

Beverley Baird said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also!

Ginny said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

Sara Blackthorne said...

As you wish for your self, I also wish for you!

gina said...

May you find the strength to overcome the fears. As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

Christine said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Cindy Jones said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also. Sulwyn, your words could've been written by me. The only difference is you have acknowledged your fears and are determined to work through them. You have given me alot to think about tonight!

Karen D said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Karen D said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Aimee Cotton Bogush said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself so I wish for her also.

lilasvb said...

as you wihs for yourself i also wish you to be better and feel less pain

CEB said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her as well.

Feel better!

Linnea said...

"To befriend that fear as a teacher and guide on my path to my deepest truth."

Beautiful.

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Sarah Lulu said...

As authentic Sulwyn wishes for herself I so lovingly wish this for her also.

Aegiale said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

faerwillow said...

~let fear be gone...as Sulwyn wishes for herself so I wish for her too...your words may be short but they are felt deeply...you took the time to show you cared! well wishes for you and brightest blessings~

Lis said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

When I feel fear coming on, I think about a Buddhist story where demons (fears) are invited to a tea party ... inviting in what we resist to shine light and love upon it, to understand what lessons we may need to learn and to unmask and disempower those critters. Our fears are just a way to wanting to be safe, secure ... but then they take on a life all their own. Sometimes all it takes for me is to acknowledge them and then they quiet down. a bit :)

Helen said...

It is really significant to give yourself permission to discover your authentic self and to live from that place of truth, and to feel fear but move forward anyway. As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Rebekah said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.