Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Wishcasting Wednesday - Stories

Today, Jamie asks us

What story do you wish to live or let go of?

I wish to live the story that my soul has been quietly singing to me since birth, the story of myself as spiritual being and healer. So far (at least since I can remember making this kind of choice) I have resisted this story, fearing the change that it would bring into my life. Fearing being "different" or labeled as "strange". I had enough of that in my childhood without embracing the truth that I am a unique creature, though by no means was I "normal" to the crowd that I met in school! So now I am 9 years and my third flare-up into a diagnosis of a life-changing condition, and I am finally realizing that it is just going to keep happening until I embrace the change and lessons this condition has to bring me. I'm a little slow at grasping the obvious when motivated by deep fears of change and being "different"!

On the other side of that same coin, I wish to let go of the story that tells me that it is wrong to be "different", that I must strive to be the same as those I have been surrounded by all my life. That story no longer fits, has never truly fit, and I need to let go of it. I have struggled with the dichotomies of my self for too long, never really finding a place where I belonged. I joined a Christian Healing Order thinking that I would find people who accepted alternative healing methods as part of the system of healing prayer and discovered that I was a "witch" and a "heretic" for utilizing or studying such systems as Reiki and Healing Touch. I found a local Herbal Studies program and hoped that I would fit there, but it became obvious when I was not interested in mind-altering herbs that I was too "straight" and "stuffy" for them. I have wandered long, one foot in one world, the other foot in another. It is time to embrace my experiences for what they are: my personal story, the lessons I had to learn to be the person I am today. I now see myself as a bridge - I was raised as a strict vegetarian at a time when my peers and their parents had no experience with vegetarians; my paternal grandmother whom I admired was a strong, wild woman (and I take after her in many ways) who lived alone in the middle of nowhere; I was raised in an Anglo-Catholic Episcopal church that still clings to the old ways, but have spiritual experiences and knowledge that are not acknowledged by such a background; my feet have always been in two worlds, I think.

In reality, my wish today is to embrace my story for what it is: to live the truth of my soul while letting go of the parts of the past that I held onto but were not my truth or my story.

What stories do you have to tell?

19 comments:

Eliza Lynn Tobin said...

what a beautiful wish! As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also! May you live the truth of your soul!

Ginny said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also. May you celebrate the unique special person that you are!

alisha said...

beautiful wish.

as sulwyn wishes for herself so i wish for her also.

Giulietta the Muse said...

Hi Sulwyn!

You are a spiritual being and healer! It's fun to be different, to really embrace it. Much easier than trying to fit in. Like the bridge analogy. that's fascinating! I'd pursue that.

thx. Giulietta

be open.let go said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also!!

Embrace your beautiful uniqueness and know that you are safe to be you just as you are. xo Jess

Lissa said...

I appreciate the spiritual You:)
As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

Helen said...

Ah yes, I resonate with your story of having your feet in two worlds and not quite fitting in. May you feel completely at home with your unique self and story. As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

Cindy Jones said...

You could've written my life story! I think we have alot in common. Now, how do we get through life with what we are supposed to do for our soul?
As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

Rebekah said...

I can so relate to a lot of what you said! There are a lot of times in my life when I didn't fit in, either. But you have such a beautiful story to tell and live!

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also!

energydance said...

Wow, I can relate to this. I also wish to live my truth and stop trying to suit everyone else. It's okay to be different - makes life interesting. :)
As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I lovingly wish for her also.

Rochelle said...

Oh I so know that feeling! As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also!

Nicole said...

Here's to embracing your story. As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Nutts and Daisies said...

what an extraordinary wish! As Sulwyn wishes for her soul to be freed of the lies of the world, I wish for her also!!!

Ellecubed said...

Your wish is absolutely beautiful. As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

faerwillow said...

"my wish today is to embrace my story for what it is: to live the truth of my soul while letting go of the parts of the past that I held onto but were not my truth or my story" to LIVING the truth of your soul...your words hold such depth and wisdom...beautiful wish...as Sulwynn wishes for herself so I wish for her too...brightest blessings~

Tabitha the KnittingJourneyman said...

As you wish for yourself, I so loving and heartily wish for you as well.

Beverley Baird said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also!!

Amanda said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so do I wish for her also. My you find your balance.

Macrina said...

My Sister, I applaud you.
Lean into your courage.