Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Wishcasting Wednesday - Gentleness

It is Wishcasting Wednesday again and this week the question is:

What do you wish to be gentle with?

I wish to be gentle with myself. A couple of days after my lumbar puncture I was able to go to the class and receive the attunement for level 2 in Reiki. I can honestly credit the preparation that went into the pre-treatment that I was even able to go at all. In the past a lumbar puncture would mean 9-14 days flat on my back with an agonizing headache. This time I was able to sit up to eat late the next day, even though I was mostly flat the rest of the time.

But back to Reiki. Since it was a class of two students I was easily able to accommodate my need for lying down and still get the information. (I was able to sit up for the attunement, however!) I find that this latest opening and infusion of energy has made a difference in how I am willing to see myself. This particular shift is of seismic proportions in my life. There is an ongoing struggle with a very negative self image which Reiki is helping me to re-frame.

Most of my life I have had a rather unpleasant view of how I measured up in the eyes of others, which translated to how I saw myself. There has already been a great deal of healing in this area but there has been a great deal of difficulty not falling into the black pit of negativity in the last year or so. With all of this medical stuff going on I have tended to see myself as a burden on others and quite frankly, rather useless. Not the best way to look at oneself, and certainly not a constructive visualization image! With Reiki 2 I have started to shift that to a view that is more acceptable and supporting of where I am at this time in my life. That doesn't make me any more patient with the waiting for a return to full health, but it makes my image of myself friendlier.

So I wish to be gentle with myself - not only through the medical and physical healing, but through the deeper spiritual and emotional healing that will give me the foundations I need to stand on my own and be true to myself.

22 comments:

Lissa said...

I can't imagine even going through a lumbar puncture. You are so brave. Glad to hear that Reiki 2 is going well.
As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish also!

Nolwenn said...

As Sulwyn wishes with herself, so I wish for her also.
You may smile when you'll read my wish as it's the same but not in the same context.
Take care.

Kate said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself I also wish for her. I too choose the same wish.

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

As Sulwyn wishes with herself, so I wish for her also.

Sarah Lulu said...

Sulwyn ...as you wish for yourself I so lovingly wish this for you also. Wonderful wish ..I'm with you!

Cindy Jones said...

"it makes my image of myself friendlier" Oh, I struggle with this! Your statement is accepting and loving. Reading it took a world of burden off my shoulders. As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

Jane said...

Several years ago I met a Reiki practitioner and took her information to take her course. I never did and I keep coming across that initial information. Perhaps I will contact her finally and see if this is something meant for me to learn and practice. As you wish for yourself, I wish for you also!

faerwillow said...

~i am so happy you are one step closer to healing within...as Sulwynn wishes for herself so I wish with her too...may you always be gentle with yourself...you are far from unworthy...best wishes with your reiki and brightest blessings upon you~

Jennifer said...

Oh my Dear! Feel our love and support; feel our arms around you!
Feel our wishes for your spiritual, emotional and physical healing and well-being!

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so do I also wish for her with all my heart!

Sherri said...

Your journey sounds like a tough one for the time being. As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Lis said...

what a powerful and courageous journey you are on! i am reminded that my spiritual teacher taught "the highest spiritual practice is self awareness with compassion." You are on this path.

being gentle - we all need to remember this, for if we are not gentle with ourselves, can we truly be gentle, loving and forgiving with others?

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Sarah said...

As Sulwyn wishes with herself, so I wish for her also.
Oh hon...I cannot imagine this...how brave you are!! Hugs!!
As for the Reiki..after I took my rist level...I would have to say..it changed my life..at least how I viewed myself! Very powerful that simple practice!!
Namaste, Sarah

Julie Jordan Scott said...

There is such strength in your gentle wish. I feel you through your words...

As Sulwynn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

Rochelle said...

Every time you talk about Reiki I want to go get a treatment - maybe I should just do it instead of pining? As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.

" M " said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself , so I wish for her also . : )

Beverley Baird said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Karen D said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also. This is my wish this week also, may we both be gentle and healing with ourselves. sending you some loving energy.

Librarian Lee said...

As Sulwyn wishes with herself, so I wish for her also. Reiki is a wonderful path, and you have chosen so courageously. I hold this gentleness in my heart for you.

journeyseeds said...

As Sulywyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also. Beautiful...

Passionate Pagan said...

As Sulwyn wishes with herself, so I wish for her also. Keep strong!

pink said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

pink said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.