Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Wishcasting Wednesday - Investing

Today is Wednesday, which means that over at Jamie Ridler Studios there is Wishcasting Wednesday! This week our question is:

What do you wish to invest in?

I wish to invest my time and energy in shaping this little cottage of ours into a place of refuge from the worries and cares of the world, a place where we are eager to spend time, a place where we can go to heal and renew ourselves. With my depression and other physical illnesses our home has become a place I would rather run away from, so as I am recovering from surgery my mother has been gracious enough to come out and begin helping me chip away at the layers of buildup keeping me from being able to even know where to start. So far it has been a fruitful apprenticeship for me, learning the little tips and tricks that I didn't care enough to bother learning when I was still under her roof and finding that I really do care if my house is clean and tidy.

I also wish to invest in my future. This one is a lot more vague because it doesn't really have a shape or a name yet. I only know that as I have been trapped in depression and physical illnesses I have also been in a cocoon of transformation. I cannot go back to the person I was at this time last year. I could try, but I would know how unhappy that life was and how it was slowly killing me. I am investing time and energy to discover my truth, to live it, and what that looks like in all areas of my life. In many ways I feel like the worlds biggest toddler. So much of my identity that I had taken for granted is slipping away from me to be transformed into something truer and more beautiful than I ever dreamed.

11 comments:

Ginny said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her as well. May you have a wonderful journey ahead of you filled with all of the good things that you deserve.

Silky Hart said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also. May you bask in your cozy cottage and feel your spirits soar to a really good feeling place.

Sarah said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Oh hon...that you will begin to feel better and things begin to fall into place for you!! Isn't it funny how we need those wonderful Mom things when we are older! How wonderful that she is there for you!
After I divorced..I went through so much...not illness thank goodness but nearly everything else it seems. I felt the same way..you put it so very well hon...like a toddler..I totally felt that way. I am so very glad now that I got a chance to find the real me..even if I had to do the toddler thing again! Remember to breathe and am pulling for ya hon!! Hugs, Sarah

Lis said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

It sounds like your journey is filled with great rewards, insights and healing ... may your home be your haven and source of inspiration and renewal; may you move through your toddlerhood with the minimum of bumps and bruises and may your transformation continue to unfold in Light and Love. It is privilege to witness your honesty, strength and beauty.

Fringe Collective Artistic Studios said...

Everyone needs a refuge from the worries and cares of the world.

As you wish for self, I also wish for you.

Julie Jordan Scott said...

ohh... how lovely is your closing statement. I have a history of depression, I know the challenges it poses and I delight in your restoration of your spirit and your home.

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

My Wednesday Wishcast....

Joy said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself so I too wish for her as well:)
May you heal well, healthy and whole and may your surroundings reflect all of the fun in your Spirit, and the good in your heart:)

Rebekah said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

I hope your cottage becomes the cozy refuge you want and need, and that all that is unclear now becomes so. :)

Gina said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself so I wish for her also.
I hope you manage to break the bonds of depression and become the person you know that you are

Love and hugs Gina xxx

Karen D said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also. May you continue to heal and take one moment at a time. May you find joy.

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
Good to know you are receiving help and good advice from your mom. {hugs}