Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Wishcasting Wednesday - Taking a Break

Today's Wishcasting Wednesday question from the lovely Jamie is

What do you wish to take a break from?

The very first thing that comes to mind is that I wish to take a break from all of this healing drama! I went in last week for a spinal tap that the neurologist decided he couldn't complete after all. I'm waiting to hear from the radiology department to reschedule and have it done under fluoroscope. In the meantime I have been set up for a consult with a surgeon about my gallbladder, I have broken a tooth, had more blood taken for testing, and am fed up with spending a lot of my time in doctor's offices.

I know that I have ignored myself for way too long, but to have it all come crashing down on me this way has been quite disheartening. Then I remind myself that I did invite it all by seeking Reiki training, though my first attunement came after much of this had already started. I just completed my first 21 days with Reiki 1 and am continuing to learn a great deal.

Which leads to another thing I need to take a break from - my head. I have taken my Reiki and tried to turn it into an intellectually understandable exercise. I've been devouring books on energy and psychic healing, chakra systems, auras, and all manner of other healing modalities. But all of that has been a cover for actually sitting down and using the energy and finding out what it means for me. I am burying myself in my head, seeking out what Reiki means to everyone else, then comparing myself to what I find. It isn't pretty.

Parts of my healing that come together, today I declare that I am taking a break from focusing on my medical issues and trying to live only in my head. What are you taking a break from?

P.S. I am wishing heartily for each of you, even though I am still having difficulty spending much time on the computer and reading or commenting.

17 comments:

gina said...

So sorry you are going through these difficulties....may your body heal quickly so your spirit can focus on other things. As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

Athena said...

Blessings and light to you. As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.

Lissa said...

You have been going through a lot. Healing & relaxing vibes are being sent your way!
As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.

lilasvb said...

i wish you to be in a good health and i thank you for all the wishes

Sarah said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.
Aww hon...I am so sorry you are going through all of this. Sending gentle Reiki hugs to you!
I will tell you after completing my Reiki 1...it totally changed me in so many ways. Breathe hon..and may you get the break you need!
Namaste, Sarah

Rochelle said...

Looks like we're both wanting to take a vacation from our head! :) As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.

Lis said...

I can so relate to how you are approaching reiki ... it has taken me a long time to relax around this notion of me doing anything, me understanding any of it and simply allowing it to be and flow. i've found a more gentle experience of it when i do this (plus, I tend to make things way more complicated that they are or need to be!)

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Kate said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

Ginny said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

Her Speak said...

As Dear Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish also. Wishing you much peace and comfort. :)

Much Joy, Many Blissings~*
Molly

kazari said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
Just think, it's all getting done, and soon you'll have a healthier, shinier you!

Cindy Jones said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

Beverley Baird said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, I wish for her also.

KathrynAntyr said...

Oooh it sounds like it is time to quiet the mind and tap into that healing energy. You sound like a powerful woman who is discovering how she can tap into that power to heal herself and others.

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.

Sarah Lulu said...

No more headmiles for Sulwyn.

As Sulwyn wishes for herself I so lovingly wish this for her also. xxx

The Fragrant Muse said...

Well, don't take a break from the healing my dear, just the drama. You are already whole and perfect with perfect health, your body is just taking some time to bring that back. Sending love and light!

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I lovingly wish for her too.

Lucy Ladham-Dyment said...

As Sulwyn wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.